chocked...

You love him
He doesn‘t love you back. You need him
He doesn't need you back
He leaves
And all you do is
Wait.

For him to take notice
For him to call you once
Just cling onto all the memories, all the fun times
Force your needs upon him
He suffocates, He quits
And you still don’t stop haunting his lives.

He doesn't wanna make things messy
But does he understand you?
Does he realise
What does he mean to you?
And then realization strikes

And start your desperate attempts to act
like you don’t care..
But the truth remains
Its all hidden there in you.

No matter how many  parties you attend
how many vodka shots you gulp
No matter how much you bitch
You tell yourself that you ‘deserve better’
No matter how much you stare at the screen of your phone
And how many hours you stand at the door
No matter how much you wish with all your heart
That you could hear from him one last time..

He doesn't trace his path back
And you continue your endless directionless wait
Every passing day....

 

Hey... Its been a while since I updated this blog, but I think now is the rite time....
as of now there is a hell lot of chaos going on in my head i jst cant seem to concentrate  there are my friends, my college, placements, there is this urgency of getting cash i.e job, my graduation project the design collection, my past my future everything......there are so many things i hv left behind n there are things which m about to leave, hv no clue whr m headed jst suddenly i hv no whr to go jst aimlessly walking......
donno whr to start wid....

as of now m under self declared vacations from quite a long time i know i should be wrking now but jst nt getting dat enthusiasm dono y n donno who how long m gonna b like dis i jst hope nt for long...

jury!!!

OMG i cant believe i am doing this now...
I have a jury right now in 15 mins... right now roll no. 11 is there facing the externals and in no time they will call for 17 dat would be me!!!
we were suppose to make a collection of 3 garments designed and stitched and i choose
to work on the theme "the moods of the ocean" researched a lot n came up with a few ideas i made 5 garments for trail bases but 3 got selected so i stitched them... well right now one of my class mate is wearing one of my garments i love this feeling...
when u know everyone is looking at ur garment n smiling n thinking woohhh!!! amazing....
i can feel lil butterflies in my stomach...
yeah here i go...

my love for pets...

I love pets i guess i got dat from my dad... i had a fish tank in hostel wid 14 tiger fish and 4 molly fish... for fish keepers n lovers it wont be a surprise to know dat one dat while cleaning the tank i saw v small tadpole sort of thing wiggling under a stone a closer look n i was shocked to see a baby fish i googled n found dat molly fish give birth to young-ones but a hard fact dat they eat them up too i quickly separated the fish from the tank n found dat it was not the only one, there were 6 small babies under d rocks who made thr way to survival i was like literally jumping all over the room i cleaned d tank kept d fish back and the newborns in a small glass jar... researched every possible detail about them... but one day when i woke up one of them died ... just 5 of them now and  as the days passed by they died one by one i was left with 3 of them when it was may end of semester and i was suppose to go for my internship training i was all set i gave the tank in a studio where the guy promised me he will take care of the fish n the newborns but after 2 months when i came back all i found was just an empty dried up tank...

and then i remembered my dads words dat at times we just have to let go... we cant keep everything with us this is life n this is how things work ... things not always go according to our will... and we need to accept it...

move on

Its a new world a new life still everything is d same...
although everything has changed
a fresh start all over again... just d memories remain...
but everyone deserves to know why ...
I have so many questions in my mind
just 1 wish to go back and click rewind....
why I am here wt am I doing?
what is right n what is wrong?
m just trying to move on...
I am not much of a writer actually its my 1st time... trying to write something but don't know wt to write I guess this happens to everyone at-least once..., yesterday I was going through a friends blog n a thought came across my mind... I should also write at-least I should give it a try...
so here I am writing my 1st blog....

 Life was so much easier when we were kids... no worries no responsibilities nothing just eat, play n sleep... parents running after us don't do this n don't do that...
I miss those days... I still remember fighting with my brother over a remote...,
watching swat cats n Dexter's lab, captain planet, top cat, road runner lol and what not... and now we hardly have time for each other, cant w8 for d christmas holidays
finally will go back home back... home cooked food, lots of relatives i.e. lots of free hugs and kisses, back to careless n free me!!!

but as of now I have deadlines to meet n assignments to complete...